Memories

At times the memories
Just clutch her heart in a tight grip
Unaware..unwanted
And squeeze it hard..make it devoid of its resilience
Making her pant hard for a breath of air..
Stifled, zapped, unguarded she stands..against the blow of a whiff of memory

Slowly her heart gathers its wit...comes back in shape
She breathes..she smiles again
Happy to let go ghosts of memories..

Nobody is happy with reality
Everyone loves the make belief they live in
So why not give them what they want?

Let them live a little..let them smile a bit

Helplessness

Writing on this blog has become a matter of contemplation for me now.
Cos I am beginning to doubt the whole purpose of it

I started this blog, to write what I wanted and share with people..
With people I knew and people whom I could know..through the blog world

But I dint make this blog for people I did not like and did not want any comments coming from them..I dint want to think twice before writing anything on this blog, since it could elicit unwanted comments

But the same seem to be happening and it just fills me with helplessness and despair..

How can some people be so shameless and so selfish and unconcerned about others?
How can they just think they can barge in anyone's life and write whatever they want as comments on my blog?

My blog is for me..for my happiness..not theirs!

I tried blocking anonymous comments, I tried blocking specific people...but to no avail..and I am not a pro in blogging sphere to know what more to do and I really don't want to wreck my nerve over this

But each time I see an unwanted comment, my temper goes for a toss..and I have to admit I am not very good at controlling it

People write theories..which they think is the truth of life..and everyone should believe it..
People who don't even know what truth means..who are so convoluted in their own brains that the only respite for them is to tamper with others peace of mind

They make false ids to vent out their depression/desperation whatever..

A point has come where I have stopped reading those comments..for my benefit..
But I am left thinking..what kind of people are these?

Love or self?

Sometimes I think, whats the most important thing for a human..love or self?

Is there any love..which goes above the self? Which can surpass all barriers created by the ego?

If so, then should I presume that when it becomes difficult to talk to people, not cos of any heart breaking incident..but cos of some useless moments of arguments and stupid discussions..which leads to non-talking modes, that the ego surpasses love?

Sometimes it has also happened that such small reasons have led to total rift in relationships..when people could not resolve trivial issues..could never reach out to the other person..just cos of this thing called ego

In such cases, the reason for the fight is so trivial that often people don't even remember what caused it..all they recall is that they don't wish to see this other person again and meeting them is an unpleasant event

For some relationships..it does not even matter whether you talk again or not..maybe cos you did not like those people enough to begin with..so if such a relationship breaks...its no love lost..and you are more than happy to let go

But with some people..who you have always loved..you don't understand why it gets so difficult

People say..love always exists...that in spite of fights, some love conquer it all..

But I say..when that love does not show often..when that love does not reach you..when that love is not something you can vouch for or depend on..which does not go beyond the chains of ego..then I guess it is in its process of disappearing..

Probably we wouldn't even know when it goes..we wouldn't even accept it..but our heart knows its gone

It used to be so easy to forget the differences and enjoying each others company superseded trivial differences..I used to think inner happiness brings about ease in relationships..if you are happy with the world..you bring the same sunshine in each of your relationships..then why do sometimes seemingly happy people hurt others?

And in all this..each one of us would think that they are right..but in reality..each one of us is as wrong as the other person!