I used to have a music in my heart
A lingering sensation of sweet melodies

I used to have a spring in my feet
Dancing to that lingering music in my heart

This new year I wish, that music comes back to me
In new colours, and new hues
With new possibilities and new avenues

And I can see a glimpse of..
..my lost beauty, in many different ways,
This new year..

Dum Malang Malang..Dhoom

Now that Dhoom 3 is slated to release tomorrow, on its eve I, I wanted to share these bits and pieces of thoughts I have been having, ever since I heard Aamir is playing the new "thief" in this sequel.

I can not help but compare him with Hrithik in last Dhoom (2).
Hrithik, in-spite of his striking good looks, never struck a chord with me, till Dhoom 2 happened..
But when I saw him in this movie, in his glorious avatar, I felt he could generate a spark even in dead water.

He was utterly, purely,unadulterated magnificence personified.
Be it his attitude, or enigma or Greek-god looks, or perfectly sculpted body or the finest and the best..his dance.

Aamir in comparison to all the aspects mentioned above, is a damp squib. He looks like this goody goody guy, or a kid, acting all angry and menacing.
Thats my take, which is surprising, considering the euphoria he created in me when he first came on screen many many years back. You can read more on that here:
http://memoriesofaworldelsewhere.blogspot.in/2010/01/aamir-khan.html

This new kid on the block had managed to block all mys senses back then.
Earlier I would have thought Aamir could do any role and get away with it, but now I am a more objective person and more discerning.

Well here are a few pics of both of them (in the same role in different Dhoom versions) for you to have a dekko, and decide..

Hrithik

Aamir

On another note, I really really wish Aamir does great in this movie, simply cos of the sheer hard work, dedication, heart he puts in every bit of his work. Specially this one, as it has been much more demanding for him to play this, what with a lot of acrobats involved in his dances.

I love the way the song goes Dum Malang Malang...

Why Big Boss?

I dont know why I become so hyper at times seeing some shitty reality show!!
I know I sound loony even to myself, but for some reason I get too passionate and obsessed about some people I hate/like in a show like Big Boss.(similar to Big Brother)

I have noticed this has been happening with me since last 3 seasons, basically last 3 years.
Though in the last Big Boss, I was not crusading for anyone specific but I had a few pet hates. I could not stand hypocrisy of some.

In the last to last season, I really rooted and voted many a times for Mehak and I hated Juhi Parmar for ganging up with the likes of Aakash deep and Pooja Bedi, complete brainless,  loud jerks.
My cousin (who used to watch it with me in that season) and I, would usually stand for the same people and share our exasperation with one and all, even though others could not comprehend our madness for T.V actors.

And this season I , with all my heart hate Armaan and that shitty, joke of a woman Tanisha, who has no self respect. She swoons over a jaded, bad-mouthed, MCP like Armaan as if she is some 18 year old nubile nymphet.

So when today,  nomination for eviction was announced, these 2 along with other 2(Andy and Sangram, who sided with them for votes, in-spite of both of then having major fights with Armaan earlier, as Armaan is one abusive person who does not leave anyone) were fool-proofed, I have been feeling a palpitation for who would be eliminated this week.

I wish not my favorite Gauhar. It would be sad to see the only one who maintained her dignity, to leave the show to a bunch of bullies and doormats.

But I am more bothered about my deep association with these characters, than the characters themselves.
I have no idea why such a reality show should inflict anything on me.

Gradually I have come to understand only one thing for such a grave obsession , that all my anger from people, from my life, from injustice I have seen or borne, from conniving treachery others close to me have been subjected to..all of it comes alive when I see a show like this, with real people and real situations.

I know its stupid and irrational, but when was I rational?

Inane, wierd, random

Do you recall moments of your life which you never thought you would ever think about in anyway? The most passé ones?

I have this gift.
No I should not say gift, a weird way of remembering most inconsequential moments of my life, like a spark in my brain

As if all my memories are wrapped in small bundles of nerves, and anytime, for any reason, some bundle unravels itself, filling me with snapshot of a certain time of my life
But let me clarify, they are the most innocuous moments of my life, yet I cant put a finger on the reason behind it's shooting across my brain

One such thing is a day in my life, when I was in the US first time, 8 years back

I was in a mall with a girlfriend, we ordered some Thai take away and then sat in the balcony of the small restaurant eating and chatting away...

And till date when I want to recreate a romantic moment with someone who had been special, just in my mind..that balcony comes back to me in weird ways..
Me leaning on the balcony with a glass of wine, me sitting on a chair in that same balcony
I mean its something I never thought would stay in my mind in anyways..yet it did..and it does

And I wonder why?
Maybe something gained..or lost...in those moments
Something which can not be repeatable..unique..random

Just like Love..the abandon and the gross innocence

You go on gaining age, wisdom, wealth, health in your life..but love does not come easy..
That feeling..that youthful oblivion..never again
That feeling... that someone sees something in you, bright and shiny..unique, un-repeatable

I want to be un-stitched, broken, pained
Wish someone could open me up, in the most painful way
And my beauty would come out again
And I would love again