I wont let everything in me go waste, I am just waiting
I feel there is a pause, I am living a pause..life will get on accelerated mode again
I feel there is a pause, I am living a pause..life will get on accelerated mode again
About Me
- WomanInLove
- I am not your mystery woman, I am not your muse..I am not your soulmate, just a passionate woman looking for her own peace of mind... Heart is a lonely hunter!!! "Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves"~I guess this is Hermen Hesse
Monday, December 21, 2015
Saturday, December 12, 2015
One in a million
In my 3 months scan(which is the major milestone scan) I had a chance of 1 in some 1515 to have a child with downs..as they say it
I had no idea what downs meant..in my vague mind I thought it has to do with low placenta and I dint pay much attention to it
In my next 20 weeks anomaly scan, which I took as routine, the lady doctor who was scanning looked concerned..it took her an hour to evaluate and calculate many things and finally she called me in and told me..there are 4 soft markers which have raised your chance of having a child with down syndrome to 1 in 10 ..she looked vicious to me
I stared at her...cos by then I read up on down syndrome and even my then gynae had told me that I needed to get a few tests done(cos of my age) to rule that out..she had warned me about what a life for a child with DS could be so that I could take a smarter decision (and whats that? to end a life which could have brought me so much joy?)
To have conceived was a miracle to me..in all the conditions that this happened so not for a second could I ever think of thinking twice about having this child
I dint know what to tell her..she sensed that and since she and my gynae belonged to the same hospital, she said you should go and talk to her immediately and even spoke to my gynae and asked her to take my appointment immediately inspite of the end of the day
I rushed to the gynae, not knowing what she would tell me..but knowing surely that whatever happens, this child is coming in this world
I had no idea what downs meant..in my vague mind I thought it has to do with low placenta and I dint pay much attention to it
In my next 20 weeks anomaly scan, which I took as routine, the lady doctor who was scanning looked concerned..it took her an hour to evaluate and calculate many things and finally she called me in and told me..there are 4 soft markers which have raised your chance of having a child with down syndrome to 1 in 10 ..she looked vicious to me
I stared at her...cos by then I read up on down syndrome and even my then gynae had told me that I needed to get a few tests done(cos of my age) to rule that out..she had warned me about what a life for a child with DS could be so that I could take a smarter decision (and whats that? to end a life which could have brought me so much joy?)
To have conceived was a miracle to me..in all the conditions that this happened so not for a second could I ever think of thinking twice about having this child
I dint know what to tell her..she sensed that and since she and my gynae belonged to the same hospital, she said you should go and talk to her immediately and even spoke to my gynae and asked her to take my appointment immediately inspite of the end of the day
I rushed to the gynae, not knowing what she would tell me..but knowing surely that whatever happens, this child is coming in this world
Thursday, December 10, 2015
I want to write about my times
From the time i got to Know my son has down syndrome
Till today
I want to write each and every feeling of mine
Things I could not share with anyone..and sometimes even not with myself
I have to ..have to write it here...
Else there shall be no witness to my life
To my moments of complete randomness
So I shall write..one at a time
Each day..each moment...
From the time i got to Know my son has down syndrome
Till today
I want to write each and every feeling of mine
Things I could not share with anyone..and sometimes even not with myself
I have to ..have to write it here...
Else there shall be no witness to my life
To my moments of complete randomness
So I shall write..one at a time
Each day..each moment...
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