Some Men!

A few days back a married ex-colleague of mine, with whom I was hardly in a "hi-hello" way, wrote a mail and proposed marriage!

Now...what am I supposed to feel for that?
Disgust, humor, pity, love/romance?
Just what???

He is a Muslim, so maybe he thought he could marry 4 times and I could be one of his chosen ones??!!!

Or maybe he thought, poor girl, she needs a man and he can fill in that gap?

I mean..whatever he thought..just goes to confirm my idea about men..which I would rather like to withhold for now and wait for it to change some day..

I know not what???!!

The lean and tall figure..and that bent head
I recognize the bending of the head..from some other life

That half smile and half amusement...I know when I am gonna see it

Whenever I cross you, there is this strong desire to be in your arms
To know every atom of your being, to know what makes you tick

How would it be to touch that smile, which I see now
How would it be to kiss those words, which I hear right now?

What is it that flows from you to me?
Forming the current which draws both of us in it?

I dont question it..I dont want to
Its a sweet song in my heart..a secret smile on my lips
A breezy thought..all through my day!

A thousand spelndid suns!

Have been reading this book by Khalid Mohammad. Had read "The kite runner" before and simply loved it

So many illusion we form of people...and so many times it breaks!
And with that we break each time..little by little..breath by breath...going...going..and there we are gone!
Never to be the same again!

But this specific book raised strong emotions within me..and I thought everything strong in me was dead!!
It was like a gut wrenching thing..something hitting pit of my stomach and I go breathless and dizzy

The atrocities that men endow the women with..the level to which it goes in some parts of the world, was beyond me

There were times when I was scared to read another sentence..my heart came to my mouth..my eyes twitched..and watered

I never knew I could feel so strongly about things which never happened with me

But then arent men the same everywhere..inherently barbaric and callous..god made them like that!

Sweet and gentle if they want something out of you..but this whole charade of sweetness and nicety falls off, the moment their motives are not fulfilled (or they are done with their motives)

I have seen it with every single man I came across in my life...in their sweetness..in their love...in their friendship...the underlying hatred!

But I don't blame them now...maybe they are made like that!!!

You said you will die without talking to me
Why are you not dead now?

Love

I will not let you get away this time
I will not let you evaporate

Will hold you close to my heart
Take you inside me

Taste you to my heart's content
Cuddle you in my breath

Even if you are here for a day
Even if if you are here for a lark

I will consume you to my heart's content
Wont give you any rest

Make you race inside my heart
make you go tipsy turvy

Lets see who wins this game
I dont care if I lose

I just want to know what you are
what you are upto
What you can make of me

Go get lost in the twilight
But just give me a breath of fresh air

Give me what it takes to fight you
And to succumb to you

Give me what it takes
To make you tick in my heart
Even if I lose myself in that moment..
Completely!