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I am not your mystery woman, I am not your muse..I am not your soulmate, just a passionate woman looking for her own peace of mind... Heart is a lonely hunter!!! "Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves"~I guess this is Hermen Hesse

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Its only words..

"Have a a good life, and get what you wish", someone says this when they are about to disappear from your life

"Take care", someone utters this as habit, while leaving you all alone

I hate such ending lines, said so often by people who actually leave you alone
Who are never there with you in your worst moments, but say these "feel good" sentences..which actually makes them feel alright with themselves for the moment

I know its a formality many a times, but sometimes you really want the person who is saying it, to stay back and take care of it all

If I have to take care of myself, you dont need to tell me to do so, I would do it anyways, while knowing I am alone in this
But if you do care, stay back and take care of me
Dont ever ask me to do it all by myself...your asking me does not help me one bit

I do feel & sound like a fanatic sometimes, when it comes to relationships
I make every word count, and I make every single moment etched in my brain, to MEAN something
Meaningless has no space in my arena

I wish I was one of them to say those things, while I meant nothing close to it
I never can, all I have to give someone I leave is emptiness, in words and in feelings
I can never conjure enough great sounding words, to salvage my leaving and going away from someone's life

I am really stuck tonight, to follow the words or to follow the heart
Should my heart swoon at someone saying the right words, of "love", "commitment" et al
Or should my heart listen to the unsaid, and believe its own beats

Cos after all "words are all you have to take my heart away"

Its strange how the words betray you...like they do...with me
I begin to write something and my words fly away...I totally completely forget what is it that I began with

Tonight shall I believe the superficial and esconce myself in the grandeur of the said
Or feel the unsaid from someone, who never had enough words to tell me anything

Love has roots in places you never knew existed in your heart

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Can you be you?

I don't claim to be blemishless
But I can only claim...
That I would give you my darkness, for the darkest in me
The pure dirt, for the dirtiest in me
Never the impure dust

But if you give me white lies, for the black in you
I would smudge my dark, and my dark would rot in me
Into a rotten quagmire, which would make me, unrecognisable to you
And bring this US down

Cos its only the dark shared, in its truest form, in us
Which can ever bring us to light...!