I hate..the education that you have..which makes you say all these serene..dumb..stoic words like "sure", "fine"..when all you want to do is kill me with your sarcasm and hatred..and bad words (which you eventually do)
I hate..your qualification..which makes you so desirable..irrespective of the jerk that you are...
I hate..your sweetness..which draws me to you..and then spurns me like I never existed..
I hate..your self respect..which tries to demean me and never bothers about my respect for myself..and for you
I hate..you..cos it refuses to let go of me..or love me the way I wanted you to...
About Me
- WomanInLove
- I am not your mystery woman, I am not your muse..I am not your soulmate, just a passionate woman looking for her own peace of mind... Heart is a lonely hunter!!! "Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves"~I guess this is Hermen Hesse
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Sometimes I think all sentiments are just forms of anger..little variations..anger is what I feel after any strong feeling
I am angry I know..very angry..insanely angry
At what..I cant say!?!
But I move around like a possessed woman..possessed by anger
I feel I can hit someone...there are times I feel I would throw my mobile phone ..just to hear it break..just to destroy something
I want to snap at any and everyone...and I think of new ways to insult people
But I end up doing none of it..and my anger just surmounts!
God..please help me!
I am angry I know..very angry..insanely angry
At what..I cant say!?!
But I move around like a possessed woman..possessed by anger
I feel I can hit someone...there are times I feel I would throw my mobile phone ..just to hear it break..just to destroy something
I want to snap at any and everyone...and I think of new ways to insult people
But I end up doing none of it..and my anger just surmounts!
God..please help me!
Friday, December 11, 2009
Another Birthday Gone
This time 6th Dec came and went..and I dint even realize till about 3rd that my birthday is around the corner
It surprised me to think how it used to be earlier. I used to be the one most excited about my birthday. Right from the time I can remember it.
From 6th November itself I would start troubling people around asking them "what is it after 30 days...20 days..10 days..1 day" :) And they would act ignorant and trouble me
I used to invite everyone possible..some close..some just acquaintances..I liked having a big crowd around on my b'day..much to my Mom's chagrin who had to arrange for the party!
Many a times I have baked my own birthday cake..diligently with icing and all..now I cant bear to make a cup of tea for myself..
And I needed to have the best and the prettiest dress for myself..
Now I don't even bother to buy anything new..this time I dint have anything new to wear but Ma was here and finally bought me something
I don't know if the change is inevitable..if the change is good..if the change is whats called maturing..but I surely would not have wanted to miss my birthday and suddenly realise on 3rd!
It surprised me to think how it used to be earlier. I used to be the one most excited about my birthday. Right from the time I can remember it.
From 6th November itself I would start troubling people around asking them "what is it after 30 days...20 days..10 days..1 day" :) And they would act ignorant and trouble me
I used to invite everyone possible..some close..some just acquaintances..I liked having a big crowd around on my b'day..much to my Mom's chagrin who had to arrange for the party!
Many a times I have baked my own birthday cake..diligently with icing and all..now I cant bear to make a cup of tea for myself..
And I needed to have the best and the prettiest dress for myself..
Now I don't even bother to buy anything new..this time I dint have anything new to wear but Ma was here and finally bought me something
I don't know if the change is inevitable..if the change is good..if the change is whats called maturing..but I surely would not have wanted to miss my birthday and suddenly realise on 3rd!
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