"aapki ki yaad aati rahi raat bhar...chashme nam muskurati rahi raat bhar..
Raat bhar dard ki shama jalti rahi...gham ki lau thartharati rahi raat bhar"
right now this song is playing in the background..and a thought struck me...its never the same again..
each year,each person, each moment...takes away a part of you..and you are never the same..
They say...time is the best healer..but time also cant make up for the "you" lost...Its just never ever the same
when the time is there..when the person is there..you dont seem to value it..you are angry about something..sick of somehting..and just want all of it to end...
But oblivious of your angry self..the softer part in you is scared...scared that what you feel now, will never be felt again..what you wish now..will be dreaded some other time...
People have thier ways of dealing with pain and hurt..some dont want to think about it, some want to lose themselves in something so as not to worry...and some, like me, dwell over it..shred it apart..take it inside your heart, churn it, till it becomes a part of you..
Then it doesnt hurt that much...
Wish there was a magical wand..which could just undo everything..everything would have been the same...
I would smile at the world with the same exuberance of a 16 year old..love as I loved with every part of me...cry without being ashamed of it...
And then everything would be the same..the scars healed and heart rejuvenated
If only!
About Me
- WomanInLove
- I am not your mystery woman, I am not your muse..I am not your soulmate, just a passionate woman looking for her own peace of mind... Heart is a lonely hunter!!! "Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves"~I guess this is Hermen Hesse
4 comments:
its been a while you have written here....eh!
I agree and i disagree :)
yes every moment takes a part of 'you', but every moment also adds to 'you'....while no two moments, years, people we care, are the same...all these make us richer in experience and only time makes that possible...
I do agree it makes us richer in experience..but sometimes I wish I wasnt this rich..a litlte poorer would work for me :)
we can say all that we want in offense or defense of stuff like this, in the final analysis, what it really comes down to is how one's soul has been laid bare, and how much it has affected it, in terms of how brave are we again to bare our souls to such influences..we may have learned some, lost some, but our ability to open up all over again is to me the best/worst outcome from experiences such as these.
cheers
Ability to open up all over again is something which would be beautiful...but i dont know it it happens
Unknowingly one tends to stop, close and put on a mask.
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