She does not love to be loved, but just as whim
Being desirous suffices her needs
She looks at men with her kohl-ed eyes
In her Velvety heel and black shimmer dress
she can find gaps in any man, from where she can slip
She says..the wanting look in men in truthful
Not the love they wear on their sleeves
They have all loved her secret strength
Not knowing she had always been in love with a weakness
But strange things happen with her always
The more she gets detached, the more men try to get her attached
The false stability makes her further unstable in her mind
She hates to stare at her mobile for someone's name
Nameless faces make her feel alive now
She knows the game of seduction finally tilts things
One way or another,
She knows, men will get her addicted to something, and take that away
So the only addiction she trusts now is of alcohol and desire
Some women are meant to be lonely
Men have seized to be what she wanted them to be
A tryst with herself, a lump in her throat
There has always been..
This desperate need to look for someone who is in touch with himself..
So that he can touch her soul some day
For men, her mystery ends in her body, never before and never after
She carries her mystery with herself, never willing to part
She does not believe in greatness in men, mere thought disquiets her
Its the smallness in them that lets her be what she wants to be
She has been hugged many a times, sometimes for the body
Sometimes for the sake of commitment and objectification
But nothing in synch with her, nothing of the hugs she misses
All this rigmarole, cos she tried finding his scent elsewhere, but could not
She would never know what a life with him would have been, or if any of it was worth it
The scent of belonging, the scent of her womanhood
She has not blushed in eons
Being desirous suffices her needs
She looks at men with her kohl-ed eyes
In her Velvety heel and black shimmer dress
she can find gaps in any man, from where she can slip
She says..the wanting look in men in truthful
Not the love they wear on their sleeves
They have all loved her secret strength
Not knowing she had always been in love with a weakness
But strange things happen with her always
The more she gets detached, the more men try to get her attached
The false stability makes her further unstable in her mind
She hates to stare at her mobile for someone's name
Nameless faces make her feel alive now
She knows the game of seduction finally tilts things
One way or another,
She knows, men will get her addicted to something, and take that away
So the only addiction she trusts now is of alcohol and desire
Some women are meant to be lonely
Men have seized to be what she wanted them to be
A tryst with herself, a lump in her throat
There has always been..
This desperate need to look for someone who is in touch with himself..
So that he can touch her soul some day
For men, her mystery ends in her body, never before and never after
She carries her mystery with herself, never willing to part
She does not believe in greatness in men, mere thought disquiets her
Its the smallness in them that lets her be what she wants to be
She has been hugged many a times, sometimes for the body
Sometimes for the sake of commitment and objectification
But nothing in synch with her, nothing of the hugs she misses
All this rigmarole, cos she tried finding his scent elsewhere, but could not
She would never know what a life with him would have been, or if any of it was worth it
The scent of belonging, the scent of her womanhood
She has not blushed in eons

17 comments:
Well, well, this is really good; 'someone who is in touch with himself/so that he can touch her soul someday.
And, 'the only addiction she trusts is of alcohol and desire'; so true and a lethal combination that.
Keep writing.
This post contains so many insightful and moving emotions, it is difficult to take in all of them, in one reading.
Her love for weaknesses and smallness in men, addiction to alcohol and desire, the sense of mystery and yet her search for his scent, makes her quite a person !
Syed - Thank you
Ankur - Am glad someone made sense of it :)
Waow - that is so beautifully done!
Thanks Raaji :)
I wish I could also meet a woman who does not blush.
Syed - Really? Why would you want so?
This holds so much conflict and longing. It also holds some of the dilemmas of being a female. I like the way you weave in and out through her desires and through her inability to truly be seen by men beneath her surface of beauty.
Bold and having a sense of power, for a change.
She writes - Thanks..you have it right
Syed - Hmmm.. :)
Lagta hai aajkal aap kaafi masroof hain.
Wow. What a lovely myriad of thoughts riding in this one. Alcohol and desire - what a combo! And I truly hope the "Some women are meant to be lonely" part ain't true!
What a lovely myriad of thought. Brilliant!! And I sincerely hope the "Some women are meant to be lonely" part ain't true!
Pari - Thanks a lot :)
Syed - Am back now
awesome writing!!! GOD<3U
Khushaamdeed.
Adhi Das- Thanks a lot. Welcome to my blog and sorry for late publish and reply as I was away
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