Do I know you...

The new me and the new you
Do we know each other?

Was it you...or was it my creation
Was it you..as it existed for me
Special..beautiful...genuine and love-able?

Did you have to be all that...and draw me to U..
And then make me realize..it was all a fiction?


I don't know..I don't need to

But what I do know is....you are not someone I should have known
You are not someone...I should have loved
You were not what I began to look for

Yet..I found you
In ways..neither you or I can figure out why..

You took me to a height..and then dropped me into an abyss
You cant try pulling me back so many times..I don't resurrect always

I wish I had vertigo..to be scared of even an attempt to reach that height!
But what I do have is - self-destructive instincts
Which makes me want you..again and again!