In my 3 months scan(which is the major milestone scan) I had a chance of 1 in some 1515 to have a child with downs..as they say it
I had no idea what downs meant..in my vague mind I thought it has to do with low placenta and I dint pay much attention to it
In my next 20 weeks anomaly scan, which I took as routine, the lady doctor who was scanning looked concerned..it took her an hour to evaluate and calculate many things and finally she called me in and told me..there are 4 soft markers which have raised your chance of having a child with down syndrome to 1 in 10 ..she looked vicious to me
I stared at her...cos by then I read up on down syndrome and even my then gynae had told me that I needed to get a few tests done(cos of my age) to rule that out..she had warned me about what a life for a child with DS could be so that I could take a smarter decision (and whats that? to end a life which could have brought me so much joy?)
To have conceived was a miracle to me..in all the conditions that this happened so not for a second could I ever think of thinking twice about having this child
I dint know what to tell her..she sensed that and since she and my gynae belonged to the same hospital, she said you should go and talk to her immediately and even spoke to my gynae and asked her to take my appointment immediately inspite of the end of the day
I rushed to the gynae, not knowing what she would tell me..but knowing surely that whatever happens, this child is coming in this world
I had no idea what downs meant..in my vague mind I thought it has to do with low placenta and I dint pay much attention to it
In my next 20 weeks anomaly scan, which I took as routine, the lady doctor who was scanning looked concerned..it took her an hour to evaluate and calculate many things and finally she called me in and told me..there are 4 soft markers which have raised your chance of having a child with down syndrome to 1 in 10 ..she looked vicious to me
I stared at her...cos by then I read up on down syndrome and even my then gynae had told me that I needed to get a few tests done(cos of my age) to rule that out..she had warned me about what a life for a child with DS could be so that I could take a smarter decision (and whats that? to end a life which could have brought me so much joy?)
To have conceived was a miracle to me..in all the conditions that this happened so not for a second could I ever think of thinking twice about having this child
I dint know what to tell her..she sensed that and since she and my gynae belonged to the same hospital, she said you should go and talk to her immediately and even spoke to my gynae and asked her to take my appointment immediately inspite of the end of the day
I rushed to the gynae, not knowing what she would tell me..but knowing surely that whatever happens, this child is coming in this world
6 comments:
Everyone has a personal choice. Although I think you made a brave one, I know of many who would have taken the other option for various reasons...but i wouldn't judge them.
It's really helpful when your partner stands by you.
Partner was not in it as such but that's a thing to write about in another post.
I won't judge them but I do feel that in general society the reason for having a child are different. They are more of investments in terms of how they carry their names forward
The beauty of your choice is in pictures you post. Worth a million.
accumulateme -> which pictures?
Of the little one in this context.
and of course those feet in sand, earthen, open and passionately poised :)
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