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I am not your mystery woman, I am not your muse..I am not your soulmate, just a passionate woman looking for her own peace of mind... Heart is a lonely hunter!!! "Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves"~I guess this is Hermen Hesse

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

These fragments I have shored against my ruins


udate pairon ke tale jab behti hai jameen
Mud ke hamen koi manjil dekhi hi nahin

( Roads glide past my flying feet,
I never looked back at any milestone of my life)

But this one road, I can give anything to walk them again..to relive those days and months and years

Someone shared a picture of my institute on FB today (the one above)

Oh! how my heart tugs along that pathway, as if the wind blowing there craves out my heart and pulls it along..on those dreams-laden streets

It shocks me how I wish for what has been and never again will be
Are we all such puppets to our past?

How I want to be there again, the walks, the laughter, the insane talks

My my...the follies of youth and the vagaries of heart..
Anything to do it one more time

Those were my golden days...my, mine, for me

I can picture myself sitting near the hostel fence, with a cup of tea, dreams in eyes, song on lips

The small room which gave birth to the three of us who shared that room, birth to maddening laughter within us and boy talks, birth to unknown facets of friendship, love and vodka

As I lay there in the middle, feigning interest in "Fountainhead", while the two of you chatted about boys in our class, and tried desperately to make me laugh

I have trodden those paths many a time, so much that smell of yellow grass still feels fresh on my skin right now

9 comments:

WritingsForLife said...

You were lucky. I didnt get that.

But I love this line:
"My my...the follies of youth and the vagaries of heart..."

WomanInLove said...

@Raaji - Why could you not?

Sh@s said...

Hit by nostalgia :)

WomanInLove said...

yes..strong and strange :)

Syed Ali Hamid said...

Nice to see Eliot here.

Yes, 'those were the days, my friend'. Listen to this song by Andy Williams. Very nostalgic.

We are our past; can't shirk it off, keeps coming back. See the state of mind expressed by Firaq Gorakhpuri:

Ek muddat se teri yaad bhi aayi na hamein/
Aur ham bhool gaye hon tujhe aisa bhi nahin.

Syed Ali Hamid said...

Sorry, the Andy Williams song is 'Seasons in the sun'.

WomanInLove said...

@Syed - I love both those poems. The one by Firaq amd "Seasons in the sun". I love these lines:

"We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun.
But the hills that we climbed
were just seasons out of time"

Milan Kundera says in his novel "The unbearable lightness of being" - "In the sunset of dissolution, everything is illuminated by the aura of nostalgia."

Syed Ali Hamid said...

'Those were the days, my friend' is sung by Mary Hopkin. Sorry for the confusion.

During my student days, there was not much mixing among the sexes. A friend of mine used to stand at the chauraha of a busy street in Lucknow at 5 pm every day; the girl he liked used to come to her window and they used to look at each other like this for a few minutes.This went on for about four years till she got married to someone else. They never talked to each other. Reminded us of Browning's poem, 'The Statue and the Bust'.
The favourite couplet for boys standing under a tree on hot summer afternoons was:
Mujhe kisi ka intezaar tha varna/
Kisi darakht ka saaya to ek bahaana tha.
Romantic, isn't it?
Your post brought back these memories.

WomanInLove said...

Thats such a sweet and romantic anecdote. I also have had such mute conversations and I used to think that was love :)